[noncount] : careful thought about your own behavior and beliefs : self-examination ▪ a moment of self-reflection
Yes, the good ol’ act of self-reflection. Is there a right way to do it – it shouldn’t be this exhausting…should it?
For the past week I found myself gutting the heck out of my mind, body and soul about what’s going on in my life: where’s my current job taking me? Do I want to make it my career? Am I settling to soon with what I have? Where I am in my current relationships: in love and in life? The list of questions go on...and on...and on...
Why am I a thinker? Why must I always have my life planned out? Why can't I just live each day for what it is and not overwhelm myself with all these thoughts? The answer: TIME.
I have to much free time. Here I go...I'm making a plan. I will fill my free time with filling out an application to take some class at a community college. I'd really like to learn a different language: Spanish, French, Japanese? ALL 3? Or I'd like to take a math course...the last time I've taken a math class was in 2005! MY work schedule makes it hard to take classes...I work 10am-6:30pm. Most evening classes begin between 6:3pm0 and 7:00pm. Most morning classes end between 10:30am and 11:15am. A very selected few fit my schedule :(
Anyways...this week I'll do more research on what I can take. If I can't find anything...I'll search for an internship...possibly in PR or event planning. I would really like to get back into this field. So fast and unpredictable. I love it. It made me step out of my comfort zone.
Well folks, that's all for now. I am getting ready to hit the road with the family. Leaving the bay aaaaaaaaareeeea!
Love love love,
Juliet
Oh Juliet I can very much relate to your post. I too have found myself filling up my free time so that I don't find myself falling into what-if land and getting lost in ridiculous thought. Miss you.
ReplyDeleteBas! My cuz! It's OK to "think too much." In our age of information, we are constantly bombarded with it. People barely have time to self-reflect anymore. Take it as a good thing. :) It's an opportunity to help you change things for the better. So go ahead and reflect on yourself. You'll be one of the few who still do it. Have fun up in NorCal.
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